#1 Counseling log_Airway blocking.

I applied for a psychological counseling program supported by the company.

Two years ago, when I was having a really hard time, I thought to myself that I should have gotten counseling, but at the time, I didn’t even realize I needed help. I think it’s not too late, and this is care for myself, who has clearly been hit by the problems that have encroached on me in the dark and the surgery I’m having next month + various changes.

It’s difficult to tell my true story to a stranger.

So, in the beginning, I went around in circles with somewhat superficial problems and somewhat light concerns. I was afraid that the fact would be discovered. My voice trembled a little and I felt like tears would come out, so I held it back and spoke bravely.

At the end of the consultation, I spoke quite coolly about the problem of using my high self-esteem as a shield to drag me into the darkness. There are still deep words and thoughts lurking around, but I feel relieved. I feel like a huge burden that I had been carrying alone was placed on the floor for a moment.

“It shouldn’t be a passageway.”

“It’s the other person’s problem and you can’t solve it yourself.”

“If they try to ask something through me, say: Contact me directly.”

My goal is to dismantle that lump of luggage, boldly throw away the useless things, empty it lightly, and then suddenly go on my way again.

🎄🎅🏻

After the consultation, I like going home while listening to carols.

I love myself so much - if this is a problem too, it’s a problem lol